So i'm going to attempt to get through this post without crying. I want to tell you about my best friend. My person. My husband. The father of my child. My rock. My husband is my biggest fan and he's also the first person to call me out on my BS. He cooks, cleans, always opens my car door, never lets me carry the diaper bag, he has changed more diapers than I have, never sleeps as much as I do, and he is just completely selfless. I know what you're thinking.. either i'm lying or a crappy wife. I promise you i'm not lying.
I need you to understand something. My husband is one of a kind. I am not a sane person. I am either going 100% or i'm dead silent (which usually means i'm mad at you). I also feel everything extremely deeply which means the good moments are sky high moments and the bad moments feel like the world is ending (i've worked on that though and have conquered that beast!) So i'm more sane than ever before! HAHA! My husband has so much patience with me. Patience that sometimes, okay most times, I do not deserve. He always loves me even when I know I don't deserve it. We dream together. We always have. Once we achieve that dream we create another. He has always been supportive of my dreams, no matter how crazy they are. Well, I take that back.. he once did shoot down my dream of being on the SWAT team. Super annoying, but whatever. Carsen and I began "dating" in 2004 when we were in 8th grade. We started out as best friends and love grew out of a really strong friendship. You can probably imagine how much of a hot mess the first few years were because we were kids and we thought we were in love. Our wedding song was "I thought I loved you then," and that is still so fitting. Everyone knows how much I love this man, and everyone knows how much I love our story. Not many people, however, know just how much an impact Carsen has had on my life. There are only a few things that i've always thought would give me a fulfilled life. 1) Become a wife 2) Become a teacher 3) Become a mother 4) Sit and drink coffee on a porch (preferably looking at the ocean) when i'm old with the love of my life. Carsen has helped fulfill the first 3 dreams of mine. So much of my life feels fulfilled because of him. and God's love. When we married he vowed to be the one in the chair. My daddy is my world, you don't dare mess with my daddy or you mess with me. (I'm 5 foot even but I have some sass!) However when I was younger me and pops bickered all the time. I am 100% my mom on the outside and 100% my dad on the inside. We are two extremely stubborn people so of course we butted heads. I have no idea why my relationship with my dad immediately improved as Carsen and I began dating, but it did. I will forever be thankful for that. My dad and I now have the strongest and most hilarious relationship. I give all credit to Carsen and God and none on the changing of my mouth. Through the 14 years we've been together Carsen has changed my view on myself, my attitude, and most importantly my relationship with God. (already in tears so scratch that first sentences please) Here is the story of how he helped me achieve #2. Becoming a teacher. To make a very long story short Carsen talked me into applying to The University of Texas in Austin. Their Department of Education only allows 77 new students a year and usually has over 3,000 applications. I applied thinking "what a joke!" Turns out the joke was on me because by the grace of God I was chosen. I graduated and have now taught for 5 years. I was not the smartest in school. I had to get extra help ouside of school and I was a butt head of a child. Which makes me being a fifth grade teacher pretty comical. Here I am thought, loving every single insane minute of being a teacher. I won't get into how he changed my view on myself but let's just say when I was younger I had some body image problems. Those barbie dolls are stupid ya'll! Carsen has loved me at 130 lbs just like he did when I was 89 lbs. He taught me to love myself, he taught me to think positively, he helped me realize how strong and beautiful I am. SIDE TRUTH: Yes I think i'm beautiful and guess what.. I think YOU'RE beautiful too. God doesn't make ugly people! We began dating when we were 14 and we grew and changed and we only fell more in love. That doesn't happen often so i'm forever grateful to God for allowing us to live this life together. It's been the incredible and only gets better. Now that does not mean there hasn't been tough times. When you begin dating at such a young age you go through it all together. We've done some really stupid things to each other, with each other, and for each other. Our love for each other has only grown, and that my friends is a God thing. There have been plenty of times i've wanted to send him to meet Jesus. (two things always stop me. For one I don't think God would like that and two who would cook me dinner!?) Becoming husband and wife was nothing. Easy! Becoming mommy and daddy and maintaining husband and wife status has been hard work! Hard work, dedication, and a lot of God has lead to our relationship today. Again that doesn't mean we are perfect, or even close to it. Like right now he is crunching on his cereal and i'm giving him the eye and thinking of deleting this whole thing if he doesn't stop. Seriously though, I could go on and on about how much I love him and how much he has impacted my life. There are so many amazing moments I want to keep with just us, and there are some "what were we thinking" moments I need to keep just between us. LOL. #4 has yet to be fulfilled and that's because i'm only 27, but I know one thing to be true and one thing that will forever be true. Carsen Ellexson's name is on that chair. disclaimer: I had to ask Carsen how to spell so many words just now.. which made me realize I didn't even talk about how smart my chemistry, mechanical engineer is. He's SUPA smart though!
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