My biggest pray is for God to have his will in my life. No matter what that looks like I know His way is the best way for me! His unique plans for our family is the exact plan I want. I’ve always been a bit of a control freak and I’m a huge planner. Letting go and letting God has been a big goal of mine and I can tell you that this experience has brought me to that goal being fully accomplished. There is no doubt in my mind that my beautiful family I have right now is perfect for me and we could totally rock, and be extremely happy, as a family of three. I love us so so so much!! We’ve never felt like we were incomplete as a family and that is a God feeling for sure!! There is also no doubt that if God leads us to having another baby or even adopting a baby that He will have my heart and mind on those options at the perfect time. Living in that peace and knowing that what I have now is exactly what I need.. is a sense of happiness and completeness that only God can bring. There is no living life waiting on things because of God... there is living life and enjoying every second KNOWING God will give us what we need when we need it. Enjoy the present exactly like it is y’all. It’s your unique life that God prepared for you!! Live in your NOW and be fully present. I promise God’s got your future all planned for you. Relax in that!
The past week has been filled with love, laughs, joy, and sweet sweet family moments! That one day could have turned our following days into bitter and tear filled days.. but only God could take a day like 2/5/2019 and allow the following days to be filled with peace that surpasses all understanding and his true happiness. The support system we have around us is unreal. SO much love and thankfulness to our friends and family. We are immensely blessed by them all!!! I thank God constantly through the day that He is allowing me to be free of any what ifs and sadness. Every night when I pray I also talk to little bean and it makes me smile SO big knowing I’m talking to him/her while Jesus is right there with our little angel baby.. in the most beautiful and perfect place that we all long for. We look forward to bean showing us around one day!! 🙏🏻😍🙌🏻